My Heart Dwells in the Ocean

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I stand at the pinnacle,
At the axis of dreams.
I taste the salt in the air
Watch as the wind erases my footsteps from the sand.
Everything here is potential,
Infinite possibilities spill out before me.
Yet I remain frozen. Watching. Listening.
A choice would destroy this moment,
Bring me back to the finite world where my legs can only carry me as far as the next step.
The sound of the sea washes over me,
Mingling with the voices of a mother and her son
As they scramble amidst the crumbling cliffside.
We are so small, but our lives seem so big to us,
Greater than the crashing of waves
Or the setting of the sun.
We feel to much
And yet
It is never enough.
Just a drop of emotion in this vast universe.
I stand at the pinnacle of my life,
Watching the pelicans and gulls as they soar above the rocks, Watching
as they desperately flap their wings to stay afloat beneath the midday sun.
I am a speck on the horizon,
A drop of life in the infinite universe,
I feel the arms of my own fate embrace me,
And I know that my life has only just begun.

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